I am so incredibly humbled tonight.....I didn't grow up in the most religious of homes. I was exposed to church and camps and Jesus through friends who had homes that were filled with the Holy Spirit. Until recently (meaning the last few years) I have known Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savor, but I can honestly say that I have never really known the meaning until now.......

This is a vulnerable, sacred place that I have until now, never really opened. I have never felt the presence of the Lord as much as I have tonight and something inside of me compelled me to share.

I have prayed many prayers, asking the Lord to heal this, take this away, make this better.....Of course I always thank him for the life he has given me and the many blessings that he has placed in my life, but I realized that I was not giving myself to him as wholly and as completely as I should be. I have not been as trusting or as vulnerable as he has been calling me to be.......

We are teaching our children about our God everyday, and his unfailing love for us. About his sacrifices and his pain so that we could live a free everlasting life. One full of Joy and Happiness beyond comprehension. I know that the Lord is guiding me in this task because I am still such a newborn when it comes to my Faith. I am so OK with this, and know that our God does not judge us by time but by what is truly in out hearts.

I am a blog stalker......there I said it...... sometimes I think I may have a problem and should seek professional help! It's that bad! There are a few that I read that are just for fun, but there are also a few that I cant stop reading because I feel that the Lord led me to them for a reason. You see I am one of those silly hopeless ones that believe in "Love at first sight" and that "everything happens for a reason".

So he brought me to a blog, that has turned out to be one of the reasons that I stand in my faith where I do today. The writer of the blog not only inspired me to dig deeper inside my heart and to let go of all my fears, but she taught me that the Lord loves me no matter what I feel or think. She is not a perfect Christian, she has fears and doubts and she feels afraid and lonely at times just like me. She too struggles at times with the right words to say and what to do. The difference between her and I is that she trusts in him completely to guide her and to speak to her and through her......something I am still learning to do. If you are ever in for a good read please check out her blog http://audreycaroline.blogspot.com/ and also her book...... I Will Carry You by: Angie Smith.

I have never been so inspired or touched, I mean down to the soul touched. She is phenomenal in every sense of the word and I consider myself extremely blessed to have been given the opportunity know even a sliver of her journey. One that is so incredibly sacred and covered in the Lords Love.

My daughter said something to me tonight after we sat in bed and prayed like we do every night, and it shook me. She is such a smart little one, and I cannot believe that the Lord chose me to be her mommy. I will continue to teach her and her brother of our God, our mighty God and pray that he leads me, guides me, gives me the right words to say, to teach......that he speaks to me and through me and that he leads me through the darkness straight to the light........